(This is one of those posts that I'm not too sure about posting. Sometimes being honest is a scary thing.)
Mother’s day is in two days. I find that I am having a hard time coming up with the right words to express how I feel about that day so I will have to rely on pictures and quotes to speak for me.
Lay down your sweet and weary head
Night is falling- you have come to journey’s end
Sleep now and dream of the ones that came before
They are calling from across the distant shore
Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see- all of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms
You’re only sleeping
What can you see on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea a pale moon rises
The ships have come to carry you home
And all will turn to silver glass
A light on the water
All souls pass
Hope fades into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time
Don’t say we have come now to the end
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again
And you’ll be here in my arms
-From the Return of the King soundtrack
I hate the taste of tears
It makes me think of pain
Of pieces of my shattered heart
Flowing through my veins
I guess what I’m trying to say is this: I hurt. I miss my mommy. I hate Mother’s day.
Well, I guess I can find the words to express how I feel. I don’t think I’ll always feel like this. Perhaps a day will come that my heart won’t shrivel up at the sound of Mother’s day’s approach. Maybe someday, but not today.